I hesitated for quite some time before deciding to publish this post, and I'm deciding to share it anyways. This material is important to me and is meaningful in my life. I don't feel any shame around my sexuality and don't want to censor myself, (thank god! aaand all the work i've done around it) and I also want to acknowledge that this material might be a bit abrasive for some of you. So to you, feel free to stop reading. I won't take it personally and thank you for taking care of yourself.
To the rest of you,
I was recently at a sexy party and had the unique and amazing opportunity to have an experience with a woman and to also share this experience with a younger man with a penis that dwarfed mine. I have had a history of feeling inadequacy around my the size of my cock and so this was a very cathartic moment for me.
It began with her sucking my cock with all of us being surrounded by people. Actually, it first began with a safer sex conversation. Then, about half way through big cocked guy, let's call him BCG, walked up and after us having another safer sex conversation with all parties joined in to get his cock sucked. His penis was stiff as a board and monstrous. Mine? It ebbed and flowed out of erection. I'm really proud of myself for enjoying the pleasure of the situation. I ended up asking him if I could suck his cock as well. He politely said no. Take away point, my cock was at times soft and extremely small in comparison to this other guy's cock which was constantly rock hard, and it was all ok.
After a certain amount of time the lovely lady said she wanted to have sex with both of us, but didn't think she was up for both of us at the same time. I asked her what her desire was and she said to have sex with him and then me. I asked them if i could be with them and watch while they went at it and they said that was ok by them. About halfway through watching her get pounded by BCG, I realized I need to pee so I get up and go. Upon returning, there are new people nearby in the play space and I'm just sitting off to the side a little bit pretty much unacknowledged by the couple. I bring up the elephant in the room to the nearby couple and share that the lady wanted to fuck me aftwerwards. We all go back to a more relaxed and comfortable state knowing that I'm not just perving.
So now I'm just sitting there watching this guy with a big ol' penis have sex with this woman.
Things I notice:
-He seems to be varying his speed. Fast then slow.
-He is pounding her hard.
-They are fucking for a decent amount of time.
After a while they stop. I think he was trying to climax, but it wasn't happening. She is spent! I smile and ask playfully if she needs a break. She nods yes and giggles. After a bit, I eat her pus' and then lift her up, turn her over, flip her upside down. We're a couple of giggling school kids! I then ask her if she wants me inside of her. She enthusiastically says yes and after just a few moments inside of her she loudly exclaims, "finally someone who knows how to fuck!" I fall over (and out) laughing. So even though he may have had signs of being good in bed, see points made above, what really seems to matter is something different. I have such a shit-eating grin on my face. We continue going between bouts of big belly laughing and moans of ecstasy. I think we've garnered the attention of the whole room at this point and are gaining a fanbase. Everyone is as happy as we are, it is great.
After a bit we feel complete and it's about time for the party to end. BCG comes up and asks if she wants to stay in touch, she quickly and kindly says no. I'm smile deeply inside. She says to me she looks forward to seeing me at the next party and we share our appreciations for each other.
I am at one with my penis, my body, and my sex. The circle of cock inadequacy and self doubt has been closed. Ahhhhhh.
Note: In case any of you are thinking it, this is not about putting myself above the other guy at being better at sex. This is about me getting over some of my sexual inadequacy hangups and celebrating my personal successes.
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