Jersey city?

I move to Jersey City on Saturday.  I found a place to sublet for 30 days for $325, which is a steal! 

After that i head to Barcelona.  I'm going to get an apartment with a woman i met in Seattle.  I really like her and she likes me too.  I shared with her about my desire for openness when it comes to the relationship and she's ok with that.  I scare myself writing this publicly.  I imagine non-monogamous relationships are outside of the norm, and i imagine you will judge me reading this.
I'm buying a one way ticket to Spain, and then plan to be in Bolivia come mid January to exercise rescued jaguars and/or pumas on an animal sanctuary.  I read about it in a book several years ago, and it has been in the back of my mind ever since.  And i found someone who wants to go and do it with me!

I've been putting off writing this entry.  Since i've started this blog, i've had three people request that i remove them from the update mailing list that i've made.  And i get it.  not everyone cares to read my blog posts.  Nonetheless, i got a little gun shy and questioned why i even was writing. 

• Who was my audience, what do i want to tell them/you?  
• Am i writing this for myself or for you?  
• Informative or more of just an update?

On another note, I contacted and spoke with a couple of different employees of large environmental non-profits.  I felt hopeless after the conversations.  They seemed like big companies and that i would end up just getting a job to start on the career path of environmentalism.

The biggest problem our world faces right now is the destruction of our global environment which our species, along with many other species, depends on for food, water, and shelter and the massive and complex system that is in place to make sure the the world stays the status quo.

 Starting a career with a big corporate non-profit just doesn't feel right.  I feel by the time i was working on big time projects, it would be too late.

 

My low hanging fruit will be fish farming with a coinciding produce hydroponics system.  Developing this will allow for sourcing of edible fish from places other than the ocean and also a non-beef-poultry-pork protein.

I have experience in this field and find it interesting.

I've been thinking a lot about the job and money lifestyle and it really rubs me the wrong way.  Primarily how much it costs to live as a normal american. and yes, i know these number will change depending on where you are geographically.

Per month:

rent+utilities= $500-1000

car+insurance= $100

health insurance= $100

cell phone= $50

internet= $20

food= $300-500

 

and then just how quickly it all can come crashing down, with just one major illness or injury. i scare myself when i think about it.  even with health insurance, an injury is still really expensive.  i dunno, i guess i feel trapped in this world where a constant income seems to be a requirement and i must work constantly in order to keep that up.  Even though, according to my life over the last couple of years, i haven't worked constantly, and have had some pretty amazing adventures, and some damn wonderful sexy times. gall darn my mind sure does like to make a big deal out of new territories and unknowns of life.

the idea of working another day as a software consultant fill my body with dread.  and thank god i can listen to my body now!  instead i can work as a barista, or at a cinema.  I can work as a greenpeace canvasser, an ice cream scooper, or at a fish farm.  This feel fun.  I can ask for what i want, and i can design my life exactly how i want.  Which may be, i never pay rent, don't own a car, get food from food banks, and get a really cheap cell phone plan and i try to get my friends and family to sign up for viber or some other messaging phone app which gives free calls over the internet.

My biggest challenge right now is to go through with the launch of Bitcoin Bodywork.  I decided to team up with two other bodyworkers, that way this pet project of mine has a chance in hell of making it around my self sabotaging mind, and actually existing.

I've been eating lots of food lately and doing a decent amount of exercising.  I'm really proud of that.  And sharing out loud about my sex and masturbation with friends and family, which i've grown up feeling a lot of shame around.  

 

The picture is from college halloween.  I wore this to class.  No one else in any of my classes dressed up.  That's how i roll.

NOTE:  I would love to hear from you all on where you're at in your life.  What's a big deal for you right now, what you're going through.  What you're proud of.  What you're ashamed of.